Another day. . . another missed workout. . . ?

Ah the joys. . . things are crazy for me right now. . . work is hectic to say the least.  This will be a testament to my ability to continue to "move forward."

My life has gotten so crazy that I am now in a constant battle, every minute, every hour, every day, with people, places and things. . . and it is funny (if that is the appropriate word), how I am feeling the same way about my transformation.  One minute I am strong and the next minute I am weak. . . a constant internal battle.  I have missed two workouts this week.  I may miss today. . . It makes me very anxious.  I have not been eating enough, in fact I've gone days without any real sustenance.  I just can't find the motivation to eat. . .

I ask myself, is this just life?  Is this how it is for everyone?  Or do I lack something that has inhibited me from dealing with these things effectively?

My goal for today, no make it the next hour, is to be strong, be brave and face things head on. . . then I will move on to the next hour. . . 24 hours makes a day. . . one day of being strong and brave. . .

One step at a time. . .

xoxo

P.S.  I will also try and eat something

I almost forgot. . .

I almost forgot why I started this blog in the first place. . . I've been meaning to do it for a while, but like I said I am not a writer. . . I have been procrastinating and putting it off. . .

I started this blog, or the motivation to finally start this blog, came from the SINS Body Transformation Body Challenge.  While, I can ALWAYS improve physically, I think my transformation and my goals are going to be a "mind body" transformation.

I work hard, I eat right (most of the time), but what I think I am really lacking is faith, belief and love. . . for myself.  I am really good at loving others, doing for others, supporting others. . . but these are the things that I would never do for myself.  The first thing that pops in my head is. . . "am I worthy?"  Well, the logical side of me  says "YES, OF COURSE."  The illogical side is saying "Well, what do you mean by worthy?"  (See I told you. . . lol)

So, starting today, I am going to continue to work hard, eat right, get stronger. . . AND I am going to get stronger emotionally.  I am going to love me, believe in me, have faith in me.  I will start supporting ME. . . .

xoxo

Today is the day. . .

I'm a blogger. . . I'm nervous, I'm still not sure I want everyone on the web, to see my writing. . . I'm not a writer. . .I am not a writer. . . 

"Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So, love the people who treat you right, forgive the ones who don't and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it."

One of my favorite quotes of all time, not sure who said it, but it reminds me everyday that I need to live in the moment and not let "life" get in the way of my forward momentum. . . moving, forward. . . always moving forward. . . I TRY to approach lift the same way I approach my WOD's. . . one foot in front of the other, one more lift, one more rep. . . work hard, do your best and get through it. . . 

I think this is a nice start. . . 

xoxo